●IT A LONG TIME....
it a long time since i started to post again....
after my EOY....
after my O lvl...
now i having a job right now. it time to earn money, try not to become a BURDEN to family. Now spending my holiday, can say is alone. will. just few day ago, having a buffet, when i working. well, it was a slacking day. then know quite a lot of thing on my second day. locking, switching light, move here move there. when work, everytime reach home earliest is 12.30. n tml have another shift, i think tml will be a hard day. sure is wedding. need to work like hell. i also promise ppl to visit them when they are working also.
Few days ago, i finally my answer to every i want to know. well, now i just want to get the hold of myself, n move on. n wanted to dye my hair. finding the right colour that i want. n in chinese, it say"finally put down the rock on our chest" or should say know your limit. u cannot mean cannot.
well. don really want to say too many stuff to anybody. as i also say" it better to suffer in silence rather than speaking up n cause problem"
that all. sure no ppl will ever come my blog again. ~_~
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
●NEWS FLASH
YUAN JUN IS DEAD ON 5PM 1 OCTOBER 2010
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
●---GIVING UP---
it been a long time i nvr post ler. i think i post or nvr post nobody will care. well, today go causeway after my tuition. i want buy something de but don have. then got force go buy assessment. this few day..... it quite quiet for me. no one talk to me, care for me. my life is just sad. morning just finishing watching toy story 3. i just realise something. or rather i feel regret. i know that time i should say yes. now wont be so hard now.... i really miss you, but i cannot show it, say it. u now have someone that u like. i don want to be a third party. i don want to know and wish that i dono what happen to u all. i know u now avoiding me. i also want to avoid u. My family..... keep forcing me what i don want to do. sometime i really tired from u all. u say wany buy me something. when i choose u say is expensive for a student to wear. then sis can lar. i cannot lar. like waste my time. i really hate my life. i wanted to live my life happily before i gone. but i don think i really can now. friend that i have suck.... relationship for me suck. life suck.... EVERYTHING SUCK!!!! i really have no more choice to give up ler..
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
●---- NO MOOD----
SIGH.... tml start school ler. 4 n half day of holiday. but not enough of it. well let start from on friday ba. the celebration is good but i feel a bit boring lar dono y... the after school at stage take pic cause of teacher birthday. then after that go eat with hq at mac. he so unlucky lor ppl milo spill on him. then ltr go bugis with mac terence hy n one guy that is from our school but dono who. then fking cb lar. terence suddenly say want go AMK hub. like fk lar. say want go bugis then say want go AMK. then i say. "u want go then u go yrself we go ourselves" then they go lor. then we wait for hy. then he like damn long then we go there 1st. then something serious happen to my friend. at train suddenly text me, then i also dono how to help. "GIRLS PLZ DON DO SOMETHING STUPID WHEN IT TOO YOUNG". it a advice from me. then reach bugis, keep at there walk walk lor. then mac go play jubeat. like what lor i just know how play then give me those hard de. then want go watch movie de then too expensive n need wait very long then forget it lor. then go bugis street walk walk. then hy n mac go eat junk food. then after that go mac house play lor. then at MRT i fall asleep. damn tired. then mac keep wake me up dono for what. then i look the map, then got i girl thought i looking at her then dono run until very far. i was like =_="...... then go mac house play play lor. go home still can ta han until morning. dono y cannot sleep.
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Other story.....
another big "SIGH" still thinking of it. trying to forget..... how i can have a brain dead or heart dead. then it can kill me. prelim n O lvl is coming but i still thinking this stupid thing that i cannot happen. i want to concentrate. thinking of how we chat on phone n msg each other.... but cause of something happen to u. i cannot do it anymore. it will be a nuisance to you. world is moving. time is changing. but i hope u don change, but i want to change. change to more clever, more social more brave more caring toward ppl. in other word, i want to change everything now. plz teach me. i really want to change to a better person many thing i cannot say it out. say ler, a lo of thing will happen, mayb even will ruined of my any relationship. cannot do anything stupid thing now. i hope u all also don do anything stupid. if u don mind i can be all of yrs listening ear. just don shout at it can ler. ^_^
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I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
●---JEALOUS---
long time nvr post ler. tml is celebration of national day. this year not really looking forward. SIGH.... i dono y i will keep thinking of it. yts, go temple cause of my god-father birthday then must go pray. then at there eat dinner lor, counted as eat save money. then so lucky c ys n kelvin at there with their lion dance group. then at there c what they do lor. quite boring lar.Today during emath. ys go take my correction liuqid then go waste. everything come out then u go make on ys hand. then he foce me go play basketball. then i don want then i faster run away. then dono he really one person at there wait anot? another thing is, i have tell my nuer don think so much. but i still miss it. the time we had. i have been waiting waiting waiting waiting.... waiting for you to turn back n look at me. but i know that wont happen unless miracle really happen. i am jealous of ppl who have their partern but i don have. just have heart pain.... i trying to distract myself from doing something stupid. i tell myself don want to think u anymore. but i just cannot do it. 2nd is my friend trouble. hope the thing don really come true. if true, hope thing will go smoothly to you. u everytime ask me find another person. well is just difficult to. plus i am a different person from other ppl. not really many ppl will put up with me. my trouble, my problem, my attitude. i don really know who i am know. don say other ppl will understand me. sigh hope u will turn back to me. just say anything u want to me. i don really mind. suffering all inside don let anyone know. act blur dumb. mayb is the only way to survive now........................
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
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i think i almost nvr blog for one week ler. my memories on the other days is fading.....i think i will start on when go northpoint KFC eat ba. go with zj, hy n mack. then is like so long Q there lor. then c hy order a large whiped potato. then i buy like $7++ cause i trade up cheese fries. i even put my class tee shirt money to eat. then suddenly c hy "friend" there wor..... hahaha damn funny that time. c them walk pass us then hy also nvr say hi lor. like aiyo y nvr say hi. then eat like damn full liao. then thought of walking in northpoint awhile then go home. then really walk like 20~30min go home. then mack n zj keep play, then i was like sitting in the middle. then zj show some unglam thing to mack the keep point to me lor. like so disgusting!!!! the friday go ngee ann poly for some CSI science thing. wear the "lab coat" all like scientist like lor but very waste time lor. i thought will be very fun de. then sit there for 3hr lor. n the seat also not comfy de. sit until butt pain.then group with some sec 3 that i dono who. SIAN lar!! then when break time we all go eat. then the serving like very small for 20++ ppl? then irfan n i like going to 5.30 ler, going to end. then drag until like 6+ lor. damn tired liao. on bus i want take pic cause of "someone" sit with "someone" but they don let me. like walao!!! then bus journey very cold the bus is good when come back.i only can remember this much only. i think i going to get STM soon
BONNNNNNNNNGGGGGGG~~~
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
●---DEVASTATED---
ytd hy yf zh zj play football cause say got cca. so i also return racket to yf. so i go lor. lucky nvr rain. then play at the space near our classroom/ like damn funny lor. for me like not playing football but is like a laughing session for me. then hy pattern more that badminton. the want block my ball then slip on the grass there. run until tired. then got to malay ppl want play tgt the play lor. then i and zh sit at the bench n the bench is the goalpost lor. then got 4 leg block at the goalpost leh. how they goal lor, then say what" all use wushu de". damn funny lor. then go canteen rest. then yf hy n zh at the fight. yf n hy say until i laugh until my stomach pain. say " next time i got car, i put yr face at the brake there. go there step step step". <~~ that what yf say. hy say ~~~> "i go put yr face on the tire, then make u flat everytime i drvie car". say until damn funny. laugh die liao. then when going to go home. got ppl take number from hy leh!!!! AAAAIIIISSSSEEEHHHH!!! hy ppl take no from u leh. but like going to make fun of him de lar. hy don want give de. then zj go xtra go give them the no.
then today. something happen the don feel like doing anything. feel irritated by everything. too much stress from everyone ler. then today got GCE-O LEVEL listening compre exam. then i faster go buy pencil in bookshop lor. but like expensive lor. 1 for 40 cent. like outside sell 20 cent or 10 cent?? eat ppl money sia!! the bo bian buy two lor, just in case. then when eng lesson. hq n dina at there fight the place to sit. then hq at there act cute like OMG!!! so disgusting. the pissed off dina lor. then hq say what got plan for his revenge. then really. sitting with me ltr. then when going to listening compre, dono what happen lar. like dexter want stead with SOMEONE(don want say who lar very ps de ><) lar. but is to say sorry only lar(u all should know who i talking right?? ^^~). like very big commotion lor. then the listen compre like damn scare lor. scare nvr listen properly then miss it. n guess what? i miss 1 qn then i anyhow shade. my day is just..... sad lar.
end here ler ba. dopn want say anymore ler.~ B0NnG!
I think I'm moving, ,
but I go nowhere
